5 Months Waiting!!

Today is officially 5 months waiting on our referral, the way I see it, we are reaching the half way point. Man, it is amazing how quickly time flies with three children to chase after here! It is hard to explain the way I feel about time, but I will give it a shot. In a way I am so ready to know our little girl, we already know our family is in a transition. Everyone knows this in not the way our family will remain as we all grow and mature. I am so excited to have another little princess in the house!! On the other hand, every day that passes, means that we are growing older and our children are growing older. I am so happy to see them mature, learn new things and reach new goals, but it is going so quickly. Just tonight, I had to unload the van of three sleeping children. Samuel was pretty easy so he went first, Emma is getting quite heavy, but she sleeps so hard, I knew she would never wake up and walk. Now when I got to Max, I contemplated attempting to carry him in the house and up the stairs. Shortly after my contemplation, I realized I could hardly lift him to standing in a dead sleep. He is sooo big..... not in a bad way, but he is growing up so quickly. I almost had a moment right then and there, when I realized I could not physically lift and carry my first born child. It seems like just the other day I was dreaming of what he would look like and act like and now he is seven years old. How in the world could he now be too big to hold in my arms??

In short when days pass, and seasons change, I am so happy to see how different individuals my children are becoming. But in exchange for this, it means I loose the past all to quickly. I guess this is what my parents were talking about when we were kids and they seemed to think time flew by, as I thought a weekend without seeing my friends was an eternity.

So for now, I will patiently wait for God to determine who the next little sister in our family should be. I will savour the seemingly long, yet short fleeting days that pass. And maybe, just maybe, I will try to pick up Max and carry him somewhere tomorrow, just for old times sake.